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Yup! I'm sober now. Hahaha. We celebrated Grene's birthday last night. It was really fun. The story behind it, however, is not. What really happened is, back at school, Leo had been inviting everyone to his post-birthday party. The thing is he didn't invite Grene cause that's like their rule or something. They never tell him whenever there's going to be a party or some other events. I know, right? It's so wrong. Grene is their friend and more importantly, all of them wouldn't be friends if it wasn't for him. Back to the topic, I didn't have any plans last night. Then, I saw Grene, Deborah, Niccah, Jamie and Dianne outside our house. It was obvious that they're planning a night out cause they were counting their money. I went over to our window and greeted Grene a happy birthday. Deborah then asked me if I wanted to join, and I said sure because I don't have anything better to do and I'm not even invited to Leo's party. I thought it would be just at Grene's place but we went to this new place called Gallery or Galleria. LOL. I don't know. I almost forgot, Clark also was there. But for some reason(Leo's party), he didn't join us. But anyways, he gave me a ride to the destination, so... Thanks a lot.

It was my first time there and actually, it was a pretty hip place. We ordered Margarita, some nachos and doritos and some fries. Grene went home first to get some more money. We were just there, taking pictures and eating. LOL. I'll post the pictures as soon as Dianne uploaded them to her Friendster account. It was really cool. We took many many shots. We were on the table, in front of the mirrors, and at those cabinet things. I had a blast. Soon, we decided to just sit down and watch Beyonce's concert that was playing in the large screen just hanging nearby. while passing on the shots of Margarita. There were only few people there cause it was still early. It was only seven pm. Grene finally arrived and we continued drinking. Things started to get a little serious when Grene said that he feels that they(Leo's party. LOL.) are already talking about us. I was just like, "Seriously guys, we're having clique problems. Why now that we're seniors?


The shots of Margarita still goes on and i'm getting sick of it. I don't like its taste. I mean, yeah, I can handle it little by little but by full shots? Uh-uh. I can't do it for like eight times in a row. I almost felt like throwing up in there but fortunately, I managed to survive. Niccah even said that it tasted like the medicine she takes when she's sick. Hahaha.

Deborah and Grene left to get the angel wings that, Krystel's younger brother, KenKen rented for a hundred pesos. They managed to get it plus the rent so we ordered more doritos. We, inspired by the angel wings, took some photos again. At first i thought of a cliche. Just posing midair to look like a flying angel. LOL. Then some words from Tyra crossed my mind. "Try to think of the opposite. It takes the obvious away." Ideas then came pouring in my head. I posed sitting on a chair with a drink in my hand, looking drunk. Another pose. Wearing the wings, I posed like I was on crack and I held the cigarette like I was using it. But NO! I am not smoking. I really don't. What's annoying is that everyone thinks that I smoke and that I'm really a drinker. But the truth is that I just started drinking last year. When I was still a junior. And I hate cigarettes that's why it's unlikely that I would use some.

After everyone admitted that the hated the Margarita too, we switched to beers. I can't remember who but someone whispered, "(Is that Laica?) Si Laica ba yun?" Some of us went down to see and we saw Laica with Jay-R. Dianne raised an eyebrow at him because he was her ex-suitor and the next thing she knew, he was with Laica. That is just so wrong. Later that night, Nikko, Dianne's present lover, joined us. It was really cool cause we were classmates back in Elementary and most of us haven't been in touch. We were laughing our asses off because of Dianne who was really really drunk. She was always saying that it's okay because moments like these only happen once in a blue moon. I already switched to water becaue I think that that's enough drinking for me. I gave half my bottle to Nikko who just arrived. Then Dianne suddenly poured beer on Deborah's glass and said, "(Drink more. Drink more.) Inum pa. Inum pa." then she poured some at Jamie's glass and then at Nikko's and then mine. I was like, "Ooohh... You are so drunk." Because she poured beer in my glass with water. Water. Beer? What the hell? Uh-uh! I ain't gonna drink that. She was just so drunk. LOL. Then she also poured some at Niccah's. But she seemed to miss the glass cause she poured it on Niccah's legs. Hahaha. Niccah shrieked so loud along with Jamie. It was so hilarious. Niccah's wet legs. Jamie shrieking. Dianne being drunk. The beer and water solution and Krystel being a TH. Hah! It was all so funny. I asked Nikko for a new glass with water. Seriously, enough drinking for me.

The fun stopped when Dianne left and went outside. At first we thought that she's going to throw up cause she has her hanky covering her lips. But she went outside, so she must be meeting her bestfriend, Meyoline (Did i spell that right?). Jamie, Nikko and I followed her outside. We sa w her with Niccah. They were talking to Jay-R. Obviously, Nikko didn't know him cause he didn't react violently. At first i told him about the reunion that we'll be having at New Year's eve but I could see him glancing at Dianne continuously so I told him that that was Jay-R. I could tell, he was blown-off. I can't remember his exact words but he wanted to punch the guy. I calmed him down and said that he must not worry cause he already have this one in the bag. Grene talked to him and then Nikko took off. I can't blame the guy. Jay-R was really annoying. We were all having fun and he spoiled it. Blah.

Dianne and Jamie went to buy ice cream at 7-11. Jamie told us that after Dianne removed the Ice cream from its packaging, it dropped at the garbage can. But still, Dianne picked it up and ate it. It was so funny. She even said that it wasn't even dirty and the taste is still the same. Then we sat down the benches and then Dianne complained, "(Why is my legs wet?) Bakit basa ung legs ko?" It turned out to be tht some of the ice cream got chipped off and fell at the edge of the bench and she sat down on it. Let me tell you, that girl is crazy!

Dianne and Grene left to see Nikko. Dianne tried to apologize but Nikko disappeared... Again. We all decided to go home. Grene and I took a walk since Jamie and Dianne has their respective rides. Niccah... I don't know. Maybe she got stuck with Jay-R.

On the way home, Robin saw us and I was like. Uh-oh. The thing is I never told him about Grene's party. I always tell him when there are certain events that I was invited in and I always ask him to come. But he was always like, "(I'm not gonna come. I'm not invited anyways.) Di ako pupunta. Di naman ako kinumbida." I got fed up with those words that's why I didn't bother texting him.

After going to a nearby store, I came acroos Kim and Niña. I was like, "Woah. Where did the two of you have been?" I told them about my story and I said that it's time fot them to tell theirs. It turned out that they also had a night out. Niña, Micah, Meng and Kim. They said that they had a few drinks at San Luis Cafe. Readers(Yes. I mean you.) please be discreet cause they don't want anyone to know about this. Especially, the persons that they haven't invited, so please.

Sisterhood of Traveling Pants 2 Soundtrack

Tomorrow or should I say later, we will be having our road trip. I know it's called field trip but I'd rather call it road trip so it'll sound way cooler. Calling it field trip seemed so... educational. LOL. Even though it's the whole point, for me, the whole point is the moments that would happen with my best friends ever. It seemed knew but I'm finally feeling this sort of connection... Like I belong. Weird, huh. I was always looking for that feeling... That feeling that when you look around you, you don't even wonder if you could trust the people around you and that feeling that they'll never judge you. I feel so secure and safe when I'm with them.

Anyways, our destination is to Metro Manila. For those who don't live in our country, it's the capital of the Philippines. It's like the New York or the Tokyo here in the Philippines. Did you get it? I mean. It's the city of all the cities. According to our teachers, we will be passing by some factories and the final destination would be in the Mall of Asia. I am so excited for the trip tomorrow. Well, gotta go. It's time for me to sleep. Nighty Night!

Dreams are really alluring. It's a big risk to hold on to it. Some come true and some turn to nightmares. I hope mine doesn't. As a child, I'd always dreamt of going overseas. Working hard and making big money. Being rich and living in another country, far from everyone that I know. I don't know why. It's really tempting to runaway. Away from all the tension and pressure. I don't know why but I'd always loved to start a new life somewhere. Somewhere where no one knows me. I was so concentrated in that dream that I got carried away. All of the sudden, reality hit me. All of the plans were ruined. Nurses are not in demand anymore. My cousin that was supposed to help me study wasn't supporting me anymore. It's hard since i closed myself away from other possibilities. I guess i was just always used on the thought "Nursing. Abroad. Money." Now it's close to impossible.

As my childhood dream turned to pieces, my passion is still in me. But my real passion is in writing. It's really a good way of expressing yourself as well as influencing others. Every time I write, I feel like I'm reaching out for the reader. And I like the feeling. The feeling that i am expressing myself without anyone disagreeing. Because it's your story, it's your composition. You control the flow of the story. It really feels good since I had no control of everything around me. Its nice to have something that will go my way. Then again, reality hit me. Being a writer doesn't guarantee success. If you failed to impress. You're done. You won't sell. That's what I'm afraid of. Failing.

Now I got two choices. It's not actually a choice since I still don't know if I'm admitted. But let's just assume that I did get in. I have to choices. First is to enroll at the maritime academy and be a man of the sea. Travel to places. Making big money. Sounds like my childhood dream, right? But what about writing? I can't just throw away that one thing that I'm most passionate about. My second choice is to enroll at UP or UST. Study nursing or behavioral sciences or psychology. I'm starting like the thought of me graduating in Psychology or Behavioral Sciences then I would be a Guidance Counselor. It's actually fun to think about. Me sitting in a desk and every student is afraid of me. That's a good life to live. Plus I could still write. The thing is... I can't go overseas. So what do you think i should do? Hmmm.... Only time will tell.

Happy Halloween everyone! Surprised? I have four days of free time that's why i decided to take some time off to give you some updates. It's the November 1st and we all know what that means right? It's the All Soul's Day. Our relatives just arrived and apparently, my uncle has been bugging me. He kept on asking me about our computer. Sure I know all the answers. I just don't want to answer. It's pretty... exhausting. I know it's completely weird but it's just that... every time i answer a question, he would have a follow up. I almost find it annoying because I was doing some research then. Another thing that made me more annoyed was that my mother gave me a hundred pesos. She said that it came from my younger sister. I was annoyed. They're just trying to make me like her. I don't really like her. So what? It's not much of a big deal. And the one thing that really pissed me off was my father. It was lunch and i was pretty hungry, so i grabbed some rice and grilled meat. After finishing it, i was supposed to have another. When i was coming towards the table, my father handed me a plate and said that I should wash the dishes cause there are more people that would be eating. I was freaking pissed because i'm still hungry. After washing the dishes, i went over the table to get some maja. As i reached for it, my father quickly stoppped me and said that i should get a knife and slice it properly. He is so good at playing games like this. Humiliating me in front of people and pretending that he's a really good person. Blah. It's all so... him.

Now, about school, it is really stressful. Thank god the periodical examinations are done but still, there's my research along with lots of quizzes and homeworks. And not to mention the Ototac Aiahsam, formerly known as BMS, was split into three. Christine's side, Meng's side and the neutrons. This issue started out really petty. Meng speculated that Jeffrey(not me. Our battalion commander to be precise.) has a crush on Christine. I mean c'mon. He is not that type of person. He having a crush? hehehe. He's just more family-oriented. I guess. Then things started to grew that Meng already has her own spies to find out what he and Christine have been doing lately. Then she cried when she found out that Christine and Jeffrey would be sitting at the bus together. She said that it's like they're doing it on purpose. I mean, seriously, I could just shake all those thoughts out of her. It's just all her thoughts and views about the situation is so farfetched. Think about it. Christine already is torn between her grades, Jem and Lochi. Why bother putting Jeffrey in there when she is already stressing about her three problems. And Jeffrey already has his family, his friends and his self. He doesn't need more, does he? One thing lead to another and there you have it Meng is totally mad at both of them. Then Raina got mixed up in the issue when apparently, Meng saw the three of them together. With Raina sort of acting as the chaperone.

It was only a matter of time when things got worse. I know, right? I thought was already the worst but still, it got worse. Meng was like talking about them worse. Like Christine being a crybaby and Ian being more deserving as Battalion Commander. She said she could've accepted the fact better if Ian took the designation instead of Jeffrey. She also said that she was very affected because of what Jeffrey and Christine said that Meng was already affecting their lives. To tell the truth, if i would be either of them. I'll be affected too. Crying over a bus seating arrangement? Thinking that i'm in a relationship that never really existed? Of course i will be affected. Who wouldn't be, right? Now, Robin was like coming aboard. He had this crush on Jeffrey. And i don't know why, but lately, he seemed to... hate him. It's weird. He's being a hypocrite lately. First he would be talking about friendship, then he would be hating on them. I don't know. Things have changed. People have changed. Lots have changed. We shouldn't have came up with the name Ototac Aiahsam. We shouldn't have tried to label the friendship that was binding us together. Because hearing it seemed to be making it more awkward. Because we're not whole anymore. We never were.